Tuesday, April 28, 2015


The fight for purity isn’t a once-in-a-life-time step but a day-by-day walk. And as I struggle some days more than others, I’ve been facing the memories of past mistakes, my own weaknesses and present failures and my desperation when I feel these sins have control over me. But there is a song that’ve been following me these past weeks, which reached out to me deeply with the truth it carries, and I want to share it with you, that it might bless you and encourage you too in your journey. I added my own thoughts in brackets. The song is called Redeemed, by Big Daddy Weave.

Seems like all I could see was the struggle [the present sexual temptation]
Haunted by ghosts that lived in my past [the past sexual experiences]
Bound up in shackles of all my failures [the boys I met, the failed relationships]
Wondering how long is this gonna last [I can’t get over my feeling of defeat]
Then You look at this prisoner and say to me [You really spoke to me]
“Son, stop fighting a fight that's already been won” [I set you free from sin!]
I am redeemed [You forgave me]
You set me free [You paid the price of my sin]
So I'll shake off theses heavy chains [I don’t have to leave like I’m bound to sin]

Wipe away every stain [You don’t remember my sins no more]
Now I'm not who I used to be [A sinner who couldn’t chose not to sin]
I am redeemed [You forgave me]
I am redeemed

All my life I have been called unworthy [this made me seek value and acceptance in others]
Named by the voice of my shame and regret [so I fail in impurity and felt so shameful]
But when I hear You whisper, “Child lift up your head” [You reached out to me]
I remember oh God, You're not done with me yet [and reminded me I’m not perfect, but you’re making me more like you each day]

I don't have to be the old man inside of me [I can live as a free person]
'Cause his day is long dead and gone [I’m not bound to sin anymore]
Because I've got a new name [I’m a new creature]
A new life I'm not the same [I have all I need in You]
And a hope that will carry me home [That you will finish your work]

This song reminds me that the main reason I fall and fail is that I believe in my imperfection, unworthiness, incapacity and inability to do right, but I forget to believe that I’m not by myself anymore - God loved me so much that He sent Jesus to forgive me, to pay the price of my sin, and Jesus Christ redeemed me, made me whole, brought me to life, broke my slavery to sin, and now I have the Holy Spirit living inside of me, guiding me and convincing me.

Every time I struggle now I bring my thoughts to WHO I AM IN CHRIST - loved, forgiven, cleaned, restored, sanctified, justified - REDEEMED!
I want to tell you, brothers and sisters, that the Enemy’s biggest weapon is deception! He wants you to feel that you need more than you already have, be more than you already are. Ephesians 1 says:

“Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ. For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will — to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves. (1:3-7)

In him we were also chosen, having been predestined according to the plan of him who works out everything in conformity with the purpose of his will, in order that we, who were the first to put our hope in Christ, might be for the praise of his glory. And you also were included in Christ when you heard the message of truth, the gospel of your salvation. When you believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God's possession —to the praise of his glory. (1:11-14)

So hold on to what God says you are, and when temptation come, shout: I’m gonna live for the praise of God, who gave me every spiritual blessing I need in Christ.
And whenever Satan come to say you’re unworthy, incapable of changing, to remind you of your past mistakes, you shout: I am REDEEMED! I’m chosen, predestined, included in Christ, I’m sealed with the Holy Spirit - I’m God’s possession and you better back away, Satan, because I won’t fall for your deceiving words. I’ll believe in what God says to me. I’m His, I’m redeemed.

Your Sister

The Wait

I waited.
18 years for my first kiss.
I held it because I wanted it to be special.
Then I met a guy that I thought was nice.
I liked him, he liked me, we were both christians.
We got to know each other during the months I worked at his church.
My last day serving there he kissed me.
I thought we were going to date.

I met his sister. She told me he had lied to me about a lot of things from his life. I cried.

I waited.
19 years till my first boyfriend.
I held it because I wanted it to be special.
Then I met a guy that I thought was nice.
I liked him, he liked me, we were both christians.
We got to know each other during the year I studied at his school.
3 months later we started dating.
He pushed over and over for intimacy and I gave in. We did lots of sexual things, but sex.
I thought he was going to propose to me.

I talked to my friend. She told me he had lied to me about being faithful. I cried.

I waited.
23 years for my first time.
I held it because I wanted it to be special.
Then I met a guy that I thought was nice.
I liked him, he liked me, we were both christians.
We got to know each other during the years we were friends.
The last month before moving abroad he pushed me to have sex with him. I fell in.
I thought we were going to marry.

I met his real self. I knew I wasn't more than a night for him, just a girl that passed through his life. I cried.

I waited.
25 years for my Real Prince.
I held it because I wanted it to be special.
Then I met a Man that I was really nice.
We got to know each other during the past decades.
He loved me so I could love him.
He gave me His life so I would be his.
My life since then has been amazing.
I know we are going to be together forever.

I met his Father. He told me I'm special for Him. That I am His Daughter too. That I am loved, cherished and pure. He said I can trust His Son. His Son did all he needed to do so I could be saved. He touched me. I smiled.

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A.U.M. asked me to tell my story. I've been sending a couple of posts to help man and woman to trust God. If it wasn't for Jesus Christ who saved me and made me whole again, it would end up being just one more story.
I want to encourage y'all, man and woman, to wait on God.

The problem is not to kiss, to date or to have sex. The problem is to put yourself and your desires above Him. To decide YOU CAN CHOOSE your life. That YOU CAN RESIST devil without Him. That YOU DON'T NEED TO RUN. But that is not the truth from the Bible.

The Bible says SEEK FIRST the kingdom of God. (Matthew 6:33)
The Bible says we can DO NOTHING without Jesus. (John 15:5)
The Bible says RUN from temptation. (I Corinthians 6.18)
The Bible says "every part of Scripture is God-breathed and useful one way or another—showing us truth, exposing our rebellion, correcting our mistakes, training us to live God’s way. Through the Word we are put together and shaped up for the tasks God has for us." (II Timothy 3:16 - The Message).

So seek first the kingdom of God; lean on Jesus to obey His teachings; run whenever you face temptation and STUDY THE BIBLE consistently to know the truth, to face your sin, to correct your mistake and be trained to live God's way.

This way, you will be put together and shaped up for the tasks He has for you.

Your Sister.